MAn, I feel your pain, I lost my best friend a few yrs ago and back then I posted about it, on thegnr strip, poured my heart out, and it wasn't easy, upside is that I know that this person is always with me, and in time if these people who are /were always there in life , they will be there after, you just have to look for the signs, the feelings, the knowing.
Its very hard dealing with loss, but always keep then close to your heart, those you loved that have passed, they give you strength to carry on.
so weird...yesterday I missed my train home and I decided to buy some big cigars (jonathan and me often smoked some of these with a fine glass of jack daniels
). So I went to the river and just sat there for 30 minutes...smoking the cigar...and suddenly i watched a boat that layed in the port and the boats name was jonathan
i can assure you that it was a weird moment
by the way ...we'll probably play knockin' on heavens door on his burial
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